Betrayer, Loved!!!

14Then one of the Twelve—the one called Judas Iscariot—went to the chief priests 15and asked, "What are you willing to give me if I hand him over to you?" So they counted out for him thirty silver coins. 16From then on Judas watched for an opportunity to hand him over." Matthew 26

Judas, a disciple of Jesus, one who followed Jesus, was a participant in His ministry, such a man betrayed Jesus for a few pieces of silver. It is so disheartening as I read this account today. How can one sell such a wonderful friend like Jesus???

I analysed my life today and I find a lot of traces of Judas in me too. For a few moments of pleasure, for a few pieces of money, for a few fleshly enjoyment, many a times I have sold my friend Jesus. I have sold my precious time with my Friend Jesus for a few extra episodes of some wasteful program or to do something I could have done without. Precious "NOW" time, the moment when eternity meets reality...the "NOW" time. What if I had spent a little more time in prayer or reading His Word, I would have drawn more closer to the One Who loved me sooo, that He died for me.

It is so easy to love someone who loves you, but can we love someone who is unloveable, one who has betrayed you? One whom you trusted, called a friend, spent night and day with them, shared your ministry with them and then were rejected by them? Jesus' ministry, His mission was and still is His most valuable thing, He shared His power and everything with His disciples only to find- being betrayed by one of them, being denied by one of them, being disregarded as unimportant when He asked them to stand with Him in prayer and they slept. How could He yet love so much that He gave up His life for us?

This is the kind of Friend I have in Jesus. This is my God I serve. This is His level of commitment toward me. Even when I was unborn, He died for me and made my life so beautiful and because of His love I can carry on. Because of His death I have abundant life. Because of His stripes and wounds I live healthy. I know He considered me very precious, even worth being paid for in His blood.

Jesus considers YOU important too, He has died for YOU that you would have a wonderful life, hope and a future. The punishment YOU had to bear He has taken away if only YOU would believe Him and know Him and His love for YOU. I promise YOU, like me in Jesus YOU will find a friend like no other.

Dear Lord Jesus, I don't have words to thank you immensely for being my God and my Saviour. For being there for me even when I betrayed You. For forgiving me every time I sinned and picking me up every time I fell short. For giving me a hope and a future in You. Thank you for loving me like no one else ever has. Help me to be unselfish, driven with Your kind of passion for your people, especially the ones who don't know You, that they may experience Your love through me. Amen

See Me Work

My little ones are now 4months old. They do need me a lot, right now they are asleep (phew!!!) so I got a little time to chat with you'll.

In the last few weeks I noticed something very interesting, which has changed my spiritual outlook. Every time my babies woke up from their sleep, hungry, they kept their eyes shut and cried their lungs out. Even when I spoke to them they didn't listen. They know its their mom's voice, but they are so busy crying and oh so loud they can't hear anything outside them. What I have started doing is, teaching them to open their eyes and cry, so they can see me and know that I am preparing food for them. I did this a number of times and every time they cried with their eyes closed without listening to my voice, I kept telling them to open their eyes and see what I am doing and then cry. It took them a while but they've learnt that now they don't need to freak out when they're hungry any more. They wake up look around and if they don't see me then they make sounds(not crying sounds). When they see their milk bottles they know their call has been answered. They have learnt to trust me, they now know when mom says she's going to get food, she will get food. Today my little baby woke up from her midday nap and did not find me, she made a little sound, I knew she was hungry and went to her with the milk she was quite happy.

I wondered sometimes I just keep crying to my Father in heaven without even paying attention to what He is saying or doing. My kids learnt to trust me in 4 steps

1. When they first cried they learnt to open their eyes to see if I had heard them
2. To stop crying and listen if I was saying something to them
3. Initially I would show them that I was preparing their feeding bottle, so they could see me work for them
4. Now they don't see me work in the same room, but they trust that their mom will meet their needs.

Conclusion:Shouldn't it be the same with believers who have spent some time with the Lord, to cry out, then to wait and listen for Him. Then to observe their lives and see the changes that are beginning to take place as our Lord makes everything work together for the good of those who love Him. Then to trust in the Lord our Heavenly Loving Father who is continuously at work on our behalf whether we can see Him or not. For a time we may not see Him but He is at work and will be back to meet us with His answers for us, for we are constantly on His mind, just as I now have my kids on the back of my mind every second of my day, no matter what I am doing.

The Year That Was 2007

Every 31st night in India we have a midnight service at our local church. The church in my hometown has a particularly special event during the midnight service, I love that program. Our church being a small one with few people attending the midnight service, everyone (well whoever wants to) gets a chance to give their testimony of how the Lord guided/blessed them the past year. I am not going to be at my church in India this year so I can't do that. So I decided to put up my testimony for this year 2007 right here on my blog. I write this testimony with this prayer in my heart that whoever reads it, if they know the Lord they will get stronger in faith and whoever doesn't know my Lord will atleast make an attempt to know Him. My Lord Jesus.


The Year that was 2007

• Special Delivery-I love being pampered, being the only daughter in my family, my dad's elder brother has 3 sons and my dad has me and 2 more sons. So I was always cared for more, loved more and I guess in the process I like to be treated real special. My God does that with me too. He answered one prayer I had prayed some 15years back when I first met Him."God give me a unique life" and He sure did. He blessed me this year with twin babies, an awesome blessing, I can never fully express my gratefulness for this precious gift bundle from God, never ever.
• Special people-I have been praying for my husband to find genuine Christian people in his life that he may get to see real Jesus followers not the ones who worship only with their mouths and their hearts far away from Him....and God did. I found in our local AG church a wonderful family who don't talk Christian, they live Christian life. I love them.
• Special first touch- I wanted my babies to be first introduced to my parents, a couple filled with the Holy Spirit, who love Jesus whole heartedly and God did just that. My parents have been with me since the birth of my twins (Sept) until the 6th of Jan 08. I am absolutely grateful to God my Living Father for that.Totally grateful Dad!!!

Above all-Dear Daddy in Heaven, I am totally grateful to You Dear Dad for being in my life. My life has surely become special and different, absolutely unique, absolutely blessed. You have made my life such a beautiful adventure. I love you more each passing day. Thank you Lord for everything and every blessing You have given me. May my life be a demonstration of Your love before people who don't know You. Shine through me Dear Lord and share Your love for Your people every one of them on this earth(Ps24). Lots of Love, Your daughter Godzheart. Amen

I Love December

I love December for I get to celebrate the Birthdays of the two most important people in my life. My Lord Jesus and my hubby. So I am planning to make him Black Forest cake and just hope it turns out well. Now you don't go telling him his surprise ok...

In the meanwhile, my twin dolls are doing well, they're growing well, they have learnt to recognise me and they now smile at us. Above all, the most precious thing is they look like me and my hubby. I feel such joy when we sit and watch them and say "This one's nose is like you, that ones lips are like mine."

Wow my lil ones look like me, my image. I feel a little nervous when they cry and scream if I'm a bit late in getting them their food but times when they are happy I feel strangely proud and sooo immensely loved when they stare into my eyes and smile. This feeling has encouraged me to get even closer to God my Father, in Whose image I am made. Wouldn't He be feeling so proud when He sees His image in me and wouldn't He feel loved when I look into His eyes and smile, just smile, not crying or screaming and asking for food or other needs, just smiling and being a child admiring her Dad.

My lil ones have been made in my image and came through me and they belong to me, given to me by my Heavenly Father. The Word of God reads in Matthew 22:20-22 "20and he asked them, "Whose portrait is this? And whose inscription?" 21"Caesar's," they replied.Then he said to them, "Give to Caesar what is Caesar's, and to God what is God's." We've been made in the image of our Heavenly Father and so we belong to Him, this Christmas as we celebrate the best gift we ever received from our Heavenly Father, His Son and a new life in exchange for our sin and suffering and death, let us remember to give to God what belongs to Him....even ourselves.

Love